In September 2012 I posted my first blog post on another site. It was a vehicle for me to say what was inside my head but incognito. To write poetry about my thoughts, my feelings and fears without the world knowing it was me.
The blog in question was called “Poems, thoughts and ideas from an occasionally confused mind”
I stopped writing the blog and decided recently that I wanted to bring it back. I would still rather be Penname as opposed to saying who I am, I don’t want anyone who knows me to read my thoughts and worry about me. Dumping my thoughts in this way helps. So doing it under a pen name is fine by me.
I have accessed the old blog and whilst some of it may feel divorced from the me of today, I am going to post the majority of its contents here just so as to have all of it in one place, to document where I am, where I have been and where I hope to be headed.
I am about to turn 43 and have come to terms with the fact that I am what I am. I am an ordinary man with a sometimes over complicated thought process that leads me in to dark times, moments of despair and anxiety that cripple me, but I am also a lucky man with support from people that love me. For that I am ever thankful. I hope one or two of my poems strike a chord with someone, that someone can realise they are not alone by reading them. Or maybe someone will just enjoy reading my journey through my poems, to see the ups and downs. Whatever it achieves I hope its positive.
I would ask that my poems or thoughts are not reproduced without my permission. Thanks in advance for respecting this wish. Images on the blog on the whole have been sourced from Google images. If I have used your image and in doing so abused your copyright or you simply don’t want the picture used, please contact me and it will be replaced right away.